This all in 3rd
grade when I saw mommy and daddy kissed under the missile toe. I wondered what
it was like and went to school the next day. At that time, all the kids wanted
snack time, this and that, but I was very different. At that moment, I grabbed
Malik Cambridge and kissed him smacked on the lips. The whole class was all
like “Ewwwwww!” I thought about how I felt and in my head, I had deep thoughts.
Then that same afternoon after mommy picked me up from school, I told her as
soon as I got in the car that I kissed Malik. Her expression was shocked that I
would even do that. Ever since then I became more in raged and was in need of
boys. I needed boyfriends, let alone every guy has a girlfriend.
Today in my
science notebook, I was thinking of boys that I could hook up with to maintain
my rage. First, I looked at all those boys in my science class; I can’t even
explain how ugly they were. The rest of the day, I had created a maybe and a
want list. My classes went on and I found many maybes. Then as I was writing
down the rest of my maybe list, I spotted this sexy guy in my writing class.
Finally I can fill in the empty I want list. I couldn’t help but stare at his
strong built figure and lick my lips. My heart was palpitating and I felt a
strong urge inside saying I needed him. His seat was next to this girl who
looked too much like a goody too shoes. As I kept looking at him, my teacher
called on me and said,
“What does hamlet have to do with society today?”
“Don’t get smart and just answer the question.”
“Well it involves sacrifice right, which lots
of people do for their loved ones” “very
well Idiana.”
As he continued to call on other students, I
went back to staring at him. As I looked down and saw him holding this girls
hand. That girl was probably doing him a favor if you know what I mean. I had
nothing to worry about, he could not possibly be dating a girl like her as ugly
as she is, and always dresses like she was an adult. I asked my writing partner
if she knew him, she responded with a quick yes as if she has known him for a
long time. What’s his name? Marks she replied with a smile stretched from cheek
to cheek as if she knows him already. I come back with a follow up question how
longs has he been here? She said since the beginning of school. How could I be so blind and miss him like
that? That’s not like me. Anyway I say
thanks and hear the bell ring.
I run to the front door to see if I
can talk to the girl. I quickly say “Hey” “Is that your boyfriend?” I rushed
into my greeting.
“The handsome one? Yep, that’s all
mine” Liela responds
“Oh do you mind if we hang out?”
“You and who?”
“Your boyfriend, Mark I believe?” a
smirked started to appear on my face.
“Oh, yeah I guess.”
“We are only really going to get
lunch and eat at the park.” Or that’s what she thinks.
To me everyone is just a victim to
all my schemes. But deep inside all I want to be is needed, and I don’t
understand why people don’t need me so I result into giving what I can to feel
this way. It’s just how I work until next
time……
Sincerely,
Idiana